into the unknown
Proverbs 25:2
“It is the glory of God to conceal a matter; to search out a matter is the glory of kings.”
This verse. It is easily the most challenging, uncomfortable and down right frustrating verses I have ever come to terms with; it is also one of my absolute favorites and one that will never stop exciting me. Here’s why.
God loves hiding things. It is His glory to conceal matters. Why? I believe it is because He knows that his children find pleasure in searching and discovering the hidden things. He hides and we find; the two work hand in hand. It’s like when we were kids and our parents played hide and seek with us. They hid, not because they were trying to trick us or because they loved to hide. They hid because they knew the joy that would be on our faces when we finally found them! They knew the excitement that we would feel when we discovered what was hidden.
In the same way, God hides things for us. Faith is a mystery sometimes. We don’t always have all the answers and we don’t always know the outcome. God doesn’t lay everything out on the table the day we ask Him into our hearts. Life would be boring if He did, right? A lot of times, answers can be hidden, outcomes can be very unclear, and matters can be concealed. But, oh the joy we have when we discover parts of God’s character, parts of His plan for our lives, parts of our destiny. Somethings about God we will never fully comprehend because He is God and we are not. But the parts of Himself that He does allow us to grasp, may start off as a mystery because He knows there is something valuable in the search.
This verse has always been one of my favorites for that very reason. I am a curious person by nature and I have always found so much joy in discovering new things. I appreciate God’s creativity and the way He orchestrates matters to be concealed for the joy I receive when discovering them. Some of the most fulfilling moments of my life involved me finding or experiencing more of the mysteries that God revealed to me simply because I sought.
On the other hand, this verse has been one of my life’s greatest challenges. The moments before the discovery is where I feel the weakest. The unknown is one of my biggest fears and when I am uncertain, or matters are hidden from me, I lack confidence to move forward and continue my search. I start to doubt myself and I start to doubt God. It is in these moments where I get frustrated with God and I wonder why He hasn’t made things clear to me or why He hasn’t given me all the answers to all of my questions. I LOVE the feeling after finding the answers but I HATE the process of not knowing.
But I have learned that discovery cannot happen without first walking through the unknown. In order to receive all that God has hidden for me, I must brave my fears and doubt. I must step out, I must grab the hand of Jesus who is patiently waiting to walk with me, and I must go forward. Because I know that no matter how uncomfortable I may feel or how scared I may be, if it means experiencing more of Him, it’s going to be worth it. Every. Single. Time.
So here I am, saying yes, making a decision to obey God as he calls me to walk into the unknown with Him. It’s a scared yes, but it’s a hopeful yes.
For those reading that have no clue what I am doing or how you even ended up on this page. I am about to embark on a journey called the World Race. God has been moving in my heart for a few months now. I have felt Him gently nudging me and calling me to something bigger, something more uncomfortable, something more unknown than I could ever have imagined. He has put in me a growing passion that I can’t even put into words. I have been looking for a way to release this passion to the world and after much prayer and seeking hard after God, He has led me to the World Race.
Although I am walking into so many unknowns by saying yes to the World Race, there is plenty that I do know. Let me fill you in!
- The World Race is a program that is a part of an organization called Adventures in Missions
- It takes groups of young adults on an 11 month missions trip to 11 different countries
- The countries I will be going to are Colombia, Ecuador, Peru, Bolivia, Argentina, India, Nepal, Armenia, Georgia, Bulgaria, and Albania
- We will be partnering with local churches and organizations that are stationed in each country and will be doing a variety of different things that might include: preaching the Gospel, planting churches, working in orphanages, and ministering to women and children trapped in prostitution as a result of human trafficking
- I leave this October
- The trip costs 18,700 *cue the gasps*
- I am confident God will provide every last penny.
- I need you, yes you reading! Hi. I need your support. I need your prayer support and, if God is calling you, I need your financial support as well!
I am exited beyond words because I know that God is walking with me I know that so much discovering is about to unfold in the next year. I know this will be a year where God challenges me out of my comfort zone over and over again. This will be a year where He moves in mighty ways. This will be a year where I partner with Him to bring His love to the unreached. This will be a year where Jesus is glorified, honored and praised. This will be a year full of salvation, miracles, signs and wonders! Needless to say, I am PUMPED.
As I embark into the unknown there are so many concealed matters. So many questions that I know will be left unanswered for quite some time. So many parts of this journey that are hidden and that are unclear. But I am still choosing to walk. I am choosing to press into the will of God, because there I find my joy.
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